tried explaining to my manager why i was late for the 10th time. he actually made me realize that it's still my responsibility to get to work on time, no matter what, whether it be a downed airliner in the road or a hostile takeover by the russians. since then i havn't been late.
sounds like either you've learned from the past and you might be ready for war now, or youre too anxious to start up and youre going to flop again. i dont know you or anyone else here but i wish you the best of luck and make sure you have a great time doing this.